Monday, August 29, 2005

still feeling sad..n feeling a lot of stress...

sigh*got a lot of stress,jus heard frm Mrs seam tat there will be a test b4 she leave for inplantach..sigh*must she like tis...hmm..feeling very tired n sleepy todae..coz today is the 1st day of sch right after our 1wk holiday....ya...so still quite dreamy...lolz...better wake up lor...haha...n so,todae's lessons,nth much quite went into my head...ya....cant reali learn properly..still day dream a lot......ya.....n oso still feel a lot of pressure...don noe can stand untill when....sigh*maybe cant hold much longer liao...gonna fall anythime frm now...sigh*sob..sob...sob...sigh*i cry again....again,im hurt oso..when i read...sigh*sob..sob..sob...

Friday, August 26, 2005

Our sec sch class gathering at east coast todae...

Yup...todae is my sec sch class gathering at east coast...hmm....arrived abit late there....so we(swee soon,sis,shu ee,tian ling,weiling and me)all took taxi/cab to east coast lor...me,sis took cab wif swee soon while shu ee,tian ling and weiling took another cab...hehe...they arrived there 1st follow by us..hmm...our taxi fare is abt $4.50,then shu ee they all is $6++...haha..the taxi driver cheat their money sia...ok...then when rearch there i very excited n ran to the beach there....hehe..cuz long time nv go beach side liao...wow...to hear the sound of the wind at the beach side...so darm smooth....luv it.....close ur eyes n listen to the sound make by the sea wave..slowly bend down..touch the sea water...its warm...tat feeling is reali relaxing man..then,we all put our bag at the beanch where sin yi is BBQing lor...then we all go play...left Sin yi n wei wen there BBQing,preparing food lor..then we all go play play...then awhile later we hv our food...bee hoon,BBQ chicken,Crabsticks,hotdogs lor...hehe...then is tat after awhile i go walk walk wif tianling jus the two of us,shu ee wif swee soon n sis wif weiling lah...then i told tian ling a lot of things...abt my ite life...my NDP story...how i met all my NDP frens....yeah...talking abt all tat i reali miz it man...lolz...then,chit chat for some time go back...again..we take cab..tis time is me,betty n tian ling 1 cab,shu ee,weiling n swee soon another cab..then tian ling instruct the deriver go bedok MRT station mah..then after the driver go on the way awhile told the driver to take shorter road lah...i think he ok ok lah...then,i remember wat swee soon told us abt the directions...hmm...it seems luk the driver is taking a longer raod leh...i ask the driver,:"uncle,u took a longer raod izit.."then tian ling added:,"hor...u cheat us ar...i copy ur car no then report to police ar.."then,we rearch the station liao..then is $6.60 mah but the taxi driver jus ask us to pay $4...haha...think he noe liao...lolz....when i rearch home is abt 11++pm liao...sigh*bit tiring...but fun lor...hehe..then oso get to meet a lot of the ex-calssmate lah..hmm..change a lot...but still the same...haha...okk....sigh*reali tiring liaop...my brain system gonna shut down liao...nid to rest liao...gonna pen off here...

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

a so called"busy day" for me...

hmm....sorta tired for me cuz gonna wake up very early todae...although todae is holiday(tis whole day holiday lor..)still hv to go to sch...y?cuz nid ti help out teacehr cuz the sec5 coming to our campus to hv a learning journey here lor...sigh*so..arrive at sch quite early.....then saw esther,xue ping n yvonne sitting there at one of d tables in canteen..so went to them..ask them where's teacher...then teacher come lor....then..we were told to fetch the sec4s(frm jin tai sec n Bukit batok sec)so..jin tai sec come liao..but didn c the bukit batok sec ppl leh.....then we jus w8 lor....for abt almost an hour..my teacehr come down n told us tat the bukit batok students went to the wrong campus..they go to Dover ITE instead of here(Clementi ITE)lolz....so a few of us follow teacher to take the Jin Tai sec to LT....then a few of us include me w8 for bukit batok sec students in canteen lor...then..is tat was preety boring wan lor....nth to do....so darm boring lor....sigh*then when at abt 9++am...we bring the Jin Tai sec students to canteen for lunch...its packet food...got rice,hotdogs..an egg and a chicken wing....so we give them thier food..then jus watch them eat in canteen lor....hmm.....a few of the food was for us..my fren eat lor,i didn eat cuz don feel like eating...no appetities....sigh*stress lor..wanna eat but is luk very full....so i nv eat lor...anyway got used to it...yesterday i oso skip a meal.....i guess tis few day i might skip a few meals...ya..due to stress..don feel luk eating....sigh*ok..ok...back to todae...then at canteen,while watching the students eating,wendy came down frm don noe where...i ask her her SC secssion finish liao ar...she say ya lor...so gd leh...they all finish can go home liao....then she say no lar...yesterday they oso got do n is frm 9++am to 3++pm....i told her me is frm morning 7.45am to untill abt 4++pm...then she say opps......hahahaha...lolz...then,i bid farewell to her n off she goes lor....then,there comes 2 of the students frm bukit batok sec....darly offer them the food which is we not suppose to lor...haha...its a misunderstanding liao...uh ohh....lolz....nvm...the teacher say is ok.....luckily teacher got order extra leh..heng....heng....haha....then,after thier lunch,birng them on tour lor....i too tired liao..so i stay in canteen to look after the things,sam n jan went along wif teacher n took the students around the sch for tour lor....then,here comes the whole grp of students frm bukit batok sec who gone to Dover ITE instead of here lor....hmm...late late....ok...can understand...but...BAD BAD ATTITUDE....very bad.....still oso not in sch U....hmm...a very bad image on thier sch...ya....ok...then teacher ask us to gather them back in LT...ok lor..so we gather them all back to LT...then is tat Jan was put in charge to take photo of the students when they r all on thier Learning journey at our campus...so jan took quite a number of pix....one of the students wear white spgetties wif Livis Jeans Bo Song Jan lor....Jan do nth but jus taking pix cuz she was ask to do so..then tat students Bo song..wat the hell man..late already nvm....still Bo Song my fren n teachers there....wat the hell man....nv seen a student whose same age as me luk tat b4 man....wat the......so we all heck care lah....then,got them all up to the BIT lab3&4...ok...all went up...im left outside cuz i dont wanna go in..so i stay outside..cuz they all hv training sessions at the labs mah..wat 4 i go in....funny leh....so i heck care jus w8 outside lor..then few mins later few of my fren come out w8 lor...cuz there's nth we can do when they hv training sessions mah....so is very boring....then wordering off myself....then come back to Labs outside...take the students downstair to LT again..get them to do a survey pass them the ITE brochue...then send them off....so i can say is todae,a lot of free time,a lot of things to carry,a lot of ppl to chase after....but a gd point is,we get to hv a lot of FREE FOOD....lolz.....hahaha...so its ok for me lor....haha...then left sch around 3.22pm...go to clementi there n watch my fren they all play pool lor...(well,i don n don noe how to play pool so watch lor)haha..but i can be certain is tat tats not my type of game...a bit boring watching them play pool...then somemore a lot of other guys around oso playing so feeling sorta uncomfortable....so after an hour we all take the MRT n go home lor....haha....then is tat now still got stress lor...sigh*hv not overcome it.....sigh*sigh*..sob..sob....

Sunday, August 21, 2005

By: Richard MarxTitle: At The Beginning

we were strangers, starting out on a journeyNever dreaming, what we'd" have to go throughNow here we are, i'm suddenly standingAt the beginning with youNo one told me i was going to find youUnexpected, what you did to my heartWhen i lost hope, you were there to remind meThis is the startAnd life is a road that i wanna keep goingLove is a river, i wanna keep flowingLife is a road, now and forever, wonderful journeyI'll be there when the world stops turningI'll be there when the storm is throughIn the end i wanna be standingAt the beginning with youWe were strangers on a crazy adventureNever dreaming, how our dreams would come trueNow here we stand, unafraid of the futureAt the beginning with youAnd life is a road that i wanna keep goingLove is a river, i wanna keep flowingLife is a road, now and forever, wonderful journeyI'll be there when the world stops turningI'll be there when the storm is throughIn the end i wanna be standingAt the beginning with youKnew there was somebody, somewhereA new love in the darkNow i know my dream will live onI've been waiting so longNothing's gonna tear us apartAnd life is a road that i wanna keep goingLove is a river, i wanna keep flowingLife is a road, now and forever, wonderful journeyI'll be there when the world stops turningI'll be there when the storm is throughIn the end i wanna be standingAt the beginning with youYeahLife is a road that i wanna keep going onLove is a river, i wanna keep goingStarting out on a journeyLife is a road that i wanna keep goingLove is a river, i wanna keep flowingIn the end i wanna be standingAt the beginning with you

Friday, August 19, 2005

feeling sad everytime when i read tis....but feeling excited for the motivators party coming up later...




okk...so here r some of the photo taken on 20/8/05 motivators part at simei ite...fun..fun..fun..but very touching...gonna cry liao...sob..sob..sob...im reali gonna miz all the fun i had wif u guys(motivators n mentors,team leaders)during NDP....frm the start..to the end...i hope to see u guys again nxt yr cuz im going in again...wish u guys all the best!!!u guys ROX!!!!!lolz...
ok..jus come back frm the party at simei ite...wow...i manage to take the last train home....1st time taking last train....ok...todae party...very fun...but is extreme touching....coz we view some video clips....abt us(motivators)from starting....May....audition...untill on national day...actual day performance......yeah.....so touching......then todae everyone was well dress....but funny leh...li ting(one of our team leaders)told us to wear smart casual formal....how come most of the ppl wearing formal???argh*who cares...i jus wear how i normally wd wear on special occasions...i don normally wear luk todae....hehe.....normally,i jus wear a T-shirt,3 quater pants...tats all....haha.....then,todae,arrived late there lor....cuz gotta w8 for agatha mah...its ok lah....then,cuz we arrived there but didn see wendy,li ting or chirs anywhere...so didn dare go in...so i called wendy n ask her come out take us in lor...hehe...(thnx u ya...)then,out of nowhere...chris suddently pop out...haha....funny rite....ok lah...then,they finish thier food 1st so they go up 1st...whereas me,betty,agatha and rainbow(a new fren)eat our food lor...then,i onli eat a little cuz again due to my stressness affect me lor..so cant manage to eat much lah...sigh*everytime got stress cannot eat ar....sigh*then,i comfrim going back to sch to help out on the arrived sec4s for thier tour around our sch lor....sigh*nv been on such event b4...ok lor..try it out lor....then,i oso comfrim %100 sure wanna join in again for nxt yr NDP....NDP2005Motivators u ROXZ.....n Motivators of green sectors..u Rulez man...luv u guys!!!!!hahaha.......lol.....
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everytime,i read tis...i got sad..and at nitez...sometimes cant sleep becoz been thinking of it....so use a lot of work as excuse to force myself not to think of it.....use homewoks,results,my favourite tv shows and japanese anime to stop myself.....sigh*better stop it.....gonna get ready n dress up for later party...sob*sigh*.........thinking so dark......darkness.......sigh*sigh*sigh*.....don care lah...jus enjoy myself n don think much abt it....tats it....pour it all out n go.....

Thursday, August 18, 2005

feeling blue...and....lonely...

hmm...todae....very pertatic man,,,onli 12 ppl come for class and only for 1 hr onli...haha....ok ...ok....i finelly passed my 2.4m run....yeah...so happy....finelly,16.37 is my timming...better liao...hehe....then,go to B6/01 for BSA....do nth leh..so play wif the com lor....read ppl's blog....play online games....check hotmail....then kana locked inside by Mrs chan....my fren come looking for me oso cannot enter the room...so she stand outside...i pass her the money frm underneath the door lor....then a few mins later,Mrs chan come open the door....so boring todae....feel so quite...maybe becuz onli a few of us come for lessons lor...then oso,i 1st time alone board bus to sch n home myself...normally my sis or frens will come wif me one...so feeling a bit scared cuz im 1st time alone boarding bus lor...then around 11++am board the bus 188 then go home lor...bus 188 very long leh...waited almost 30 mins....sigh*on coming wed still nid to report to sch at 7.45am to help teacher to sort of take care the sec 4 students who is coming to visit our campus lor....n nid to help teacher take the food frm Nan Hua Pri for the sec 4s...argh*ok lor...nvm....wont kill me to help teacher out rite....haha....then,must help take he sec 4 tour around.....then get them to LT to fill in the survery form then end of the day....feeling a bit scared leh...1st time to go wif my 2 SC fren to take students tour around....hehe......than...thinking of what to wear for tml's party at simei....hmm....don noe leh....but comfirm wearing a white colored top...hehe....must look nice nice ar....its last time liao....to get to see all my NDP frens....then going on diet...wanna slim down my tummy n legs...hmm...maybe getting to do a lot of excirse...haha....wanna get my weight frm 47kg to 38kg...hehe....

holidays is coming soon...



photo taken after the whole NDP(actual day)...

yeah!!!!holidays is coming soon..finelly...can rest liao....hmm...but still got a lot more things to do on holidays...ya....then,might be going back to CARE to help out....got time mah...so decide to go back to CARE to help lor...hehe....today is feeling blue...blur blur...emotional..when thinking of....Shake head*stop thinking of....forcus on work lah...im so childish..how can i noe wats it....argh* o yea...btw....our campus(ITE clementi) is hving a watson 80 discount sale at the MPH...fr, today to end of aug...ya....if free,come c c leh...hehe....

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

i feel like im living in the most darkness concer of this world...

wat is happening to me....y....y....y i kept thinking of something i don wanna think of....y it jus kept coming across my mind....even when im sleeping...or even dreaming...it jus come into my mind....y wd i wanna noe more abt...it......hv i reali.......am i running away???if i were someone else..tat wd be gd....i can hv my freedom....even if i hv a bf,my family members will not object to it....i wanna be free.....who...who will set me free.....who will get me outta tis darkness???sob*sob*sob*way too many for me to take in man....try hard not to think abt it...remember jus as normal.....but i cant.....too hard....i'll hurt d other gal if i say it out....im forcusing more on my homework....trying to control myself....sigh*jus too hard....after reading d blog,feels so much....sad.....wat the heck am i doing????better stop it..back to work..back to work...

Friday, August 12, 2005

poor poor me!!!im sick todae!!!!argh*feeling so uneasy...

feeling so.....
argh*so so so,yesterday im sneezing whole days is a warning to me...meaning im going to be sick....argh*early todae in the morning,im at school feeling so weird,how come my whole body feels so hot and my head is so heavy...but still i went to retake my NAFA 2.4m run lor....but i fail again and even in a worst timing then last friday...ya....my sis and my friend evvon,they both r so fast,im running as fast as i can liao,but my legs kept hurting...its hurts a lot man...so everytime after i run abt half d round i hv to stop down...then,my sis kepp on wanting to pull me to run faster,but i cant...then,at BSA lessons,i kept calling out agatha to help me out on my work,she nv reali heard me or wat lah...so in a anger of fustrated i shouted in class....(sry leh,agatha...but tat time i reali felt very terrible and got no extra energy to call out on u nicely)then agatha then realised im calling out on her.....then,when i rearch home,i took my lunch,and then,before i took my pills,i took my temperture...OMG....its 39.1degree....its nearly 40 degree....so i took my pills and went to rest...from 1++pm sleep untill abt 6++pm and woke up...felt better now...my fever has gone...now my temperture is 37.5 degree...hmm...better now...but im still sneezing....and i still felt so weak man....but still got a lot of work nid to do...ya.....so die die oso must REN...sigh*wat to do,do lor...do all my work lor...no matter how hard or tired i am,do lor....

Thursday, August 11, 2005

a very tired and wore out day...

that's me!!!!



haha....todae,im darm tired out...can say im so wore out liao...not much energy todae,but i already miz out yesterday's lessons...so must go to sch todae lor...then,somemore,yesterday must rushed up my sch project till todae morning abt 3am then can go to sleep....so darm tired lor...then,wake up at 6++am,get ready,then go to sch...teacher teaching,im sleeping there....so wat ever wat d teacher are teaching,nth went into my head...lol....then,the moment i woke up in the morning,ikept sneezing man..w8 ar...(sneezn*)opps....there i go again.....my body is so shakey todae....ya.....so can say,im jus so tired...i can even sleep standing up stright when im borading the bus to sch....reali....w8 ar....(sneezn)argh*hate it man...so cold.....argh*heck care lah.....still got so many work to do,a lot of WS to do,given on wed..(d day im resting at home)argh*so much more to catch up ya....ar...jus so darm tired out....felt so weak....ar...heck care....gonna watch japanse anime untill 12pm....haha...then tml still nid to retake my NAFA 2.4m rum..argh...so tired....sigh*watta do...don wan oso die die must lor.....then,after the NAFA test,still must go accompany my frens they all to go K-box.....oh well,im always so busy ya....wish i can hv a whole week rest...so good man.....
opps...there i go again....

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

a new day todae after yesterday(NDP)








hihi,argh...darm tired out todae...ya...sleep till around 9.30am then wake up lor...todae got mock test but never go lor..too tired liao....haha...so todae never got to sch for lessons lor...argh*miz 2 lessons...its ok lah..2 lessons onli....my attendance still wont be affected much ya....ok...ok...here's some pix taken during NE show 1,NE show 2,NE show 3 and Preview ya...
haha....we are sure having lots of fun ya.....gonna miz all tis fun days...lol....all d fun we had....ya....its a great experience for me cuz i 1st time participated in tis event ya....haha....im glad tat i hv participate in tis event cuz i learn a lot of things and make a lot of new frens ya......i guess nxt yr,i might be taking part in it too...haha...ya...and....haha.....thinking of those days sure make me feel happy and enjoyable....

today is national day!!!!!!!!






ya ya ya...so happy but darm tired man...jus got home from padung lah....todae ya.....is actual day liao...we were infromed tat d motivators party will b held at Simei ITE on 20th aug 2005 and it'll start at 5.30pm to 8.30pm...ya....gonna go there cuz its last last time liao lohhaha..todae lots and lots of fun ya....we got our last last rehearsal befored going to perfrom liao...than,we got our lunch at abt 12(i guess),its rice wif some mix peas and a chicken...than,we all took lots of photos...than we got our new fun pack lor...wif a lot of stuff inside luk foods,drinks,magazines...discount coupons....and many more lah...than,we have our dinner at abt 3/4++pm...its KFC lor...better than d past few KFC lor....tis time,got a durmsticks,few nuggets and a smash potato......ya....than soon we were load out to perform liao...wow....todae high and fun man...haha....ok......here's a few pix we took todae....jus now earlier on one....

Monday, August 08, 2005

yeah!!!tml is d actual national day!!!!

ealol...todae,stay at clementi campus to tend our class stalls for todae's national day celebreations...then,went back to sec sch abt 10++am for speech day...met a lot of my ex-classmates and frens lor.....wow.....they sure change lot more prettier,handsome and mature ya.....then,afetr tat tat,went to west mall to met up my another sec sch fren(Tian Ling) \who is currently studying at Bukit batok ite....to watch charlie and the chocolate factory...ended up playing bowlign together wif tian ling and together wif her fren lor...lol....ah....my bowling skills hv gone to worst instead of improvement...last time played at catay in last yr(2004)is much higher points and much skillsful....haha....maybe long time never play liao lor....lol....tml gonna be as high as possible to motivate d adudeince ya...hope to c everyone very high and happy to celebrate tis yr NDP ya.....tml reali is d last time to perform at padung in my motivators's custome liao....sob..sob...gonna miz all tis fun ya.....haha...maybe nxt yr gonna take part again...ya....

Saturday, August 06, 2005

jus noraml days....ahead....again....





sigh*i heard tat my sec sch class is going to hv a class gathering at east coast...miss those days a lot..ya...sure miss those bad bois too....haha.....always luk to play wif us ya...though they are bad and rough...but when it comes to class problem,we sure r united....tml is 8/8/05...our sec sch got speech day,heard tat all sec 4 of last yr r ask whter they wanna go back...im going back too...watch shu ee and my ex-classmate got thier rewards....thinking of those days reali make me feels so.....touching......miss them a lot ya.....those days tat we usually stay back after sch in classroom to chat.......sing songs....wonder how much we hv all change and how much we all hv not change.........haha...lol....but can onli look forward...no use turning backwards...its all a past.....for now,jus wanna concertrate on studies.....and get into higher NITEC nxt yr in siemi ite....ya......and oso jus abt 2 more days to national day too...gonna present the best outta it ever...ya....then soon...very soon....its all over....last time to wear my motivators custome and dance at padung......last time to b as high as possible at padung ya....tis day is finally come soon.....frm march till now....all d long way down d road ya....training every thurs and sat....at simei ite,then at kranji camp...then finelly all d rehearsals and NE shows and review at padung.....and then,final peformance at padung.....

Friday, August 05, 2005

haha...jus a few more days to d actual national day ...ya....lol..


sorta excited for it lor....gotta buy d cyndi's album(tat teaches dance steps)....wanna learn lor...haha....here r some latest pix...haha..nth much todae....but but but....nxt week got a lot of test lor....sigh*stress lah.....then oso got graduation photo taking sessions nxt week too....haha....gonna look good on it...ya.....oh yea....todae....i got 2.4m run....for nafa test...but i fail...i got E grad....time is 17.13mins.....although i got an E grad consider pass but teacher still wan 16mins and above...so...poor me lor...gonna run again nxt week....ya....must try harder lor...
sorta excited for it lor.....gonna buy d cynid

Thursday, August 04, 2005

what a bad lunch i hv at IMM 2nd lvl's kopitiam!!!

i clearly forgotten tat todae got additional BKK(Book keeping) lessons in the morning....opps....then,in the early afternoon,i got my BSA(Business appilications)test,so i hv a 2hr break loh....so i went to IMM's 2nd floor d kopitiam for lunch.me,betty and eevon hv sour and spicy noodles.but its sd be called as super untimate spicy noodles coz its too spicy.i onli took 2 mouthful of it then,immediately i burst into tears....its jus too spicy tat i drank all my water...(in a sec!)i even took agatha's water too....i used dram a lot of tissues papers to wipe my mouth,eyes and nose!its darm spicy.....wat d hell...!!!!gonna kill me out of it man!!!bcoz its too spicy....so i went to ask for a bowl of soup...i though i if i deep d noodles in d soup it tase better,at 1st,its alrite...but then,again i burst into tears agaion...lol....i cough a lot...and tears rolling sown a lot too......its still spicy....no use outta it!!!and so again i brough ice cream so it can earse d spicyness in my mouth.....phew*feeling better....haha....then,iwent back late for d nxt lessons...opps...can tell tat mrs seam ist happy bout it...ya....she's got a bad look.....opps......

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

jus noraml days....ahead....

and this is taken wif another NDP friends(Left,li ting)wif my ITE classmate friend(agatha) and me.
haha....tis is one of d photo taken wif my NDP friend(Chirst) together wif my sis(Right)



so darm excited for d actual day......donnoe what will happen lor....hahaha.....but im very into national day performance and oso very wanna do d best outta it.....haha...lol....

Monday, August 01, 2005

national day coming soon...

me and sis n our motivators customes...NDP 2005 rox man!

sigh*national day coming...then soon will be over....so touching....our hard work paid off....frm march,d audition rounds....then to training....then now...finally going to perform soon liao....haha....lol....so happy.....nxt yr might consider to take part in it again...lor....haha....now my mind is all on national day...gonna bring out d best....of all....hahahahaha....