Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Tense up!!!!!Stress!!!!!


hello,you guys and gals out there,i'm updating again.... Today,is quite a painful start of the day....i have a bad headach when i got up in the morning... the pain last all the way till in school.. i was not able to concertrade or focus much even i did tried a few times... i guess,i might be falling sick and maybe be ill heavily...(i'm not the type of person who would fall sick easily,but i fall sick,i will be realli sick.. and i am reali stubborn that i pretend not to be sick,and other people don't know abt it,not even my own family..) cause,as usually,i sleep at 3am and wake up at 8am...i'm used to it..(cause i am still watching It started with a kiss for the 5th time now...haha...) even now,my brain still feels hurt at the back.. after my 1st lessons,i have 2 hr break so i went to sort of "disturb" my frens who were on duty at the milo push cart... today,a special "guest" appear,who my sis and my classmate noe.. they were chatting and i was listening too... i was shock when zy says that he had the intendtion of throwing away the gifts...(the 1st thing come to my mind is that,such a waste of money,efford and effords of the designer) and he was thinking of maybe giving it away other gals in our class... me,my sis and my close fren tried to persue him...and he was really angry with my god-sis... actually,i can understand how he feel,standing from his stand point...but at the same time,standing at my god-sis's point of view,she's not at wrong either... it's all a big misunderstanding..so i tot it's not worth it if they friendship just breaks off...it's a pity that i felt if they realli break thier friendship over such matters... i have came across such matters in the past(and it still hurts when i think about it)and i lost a friend,a friendship... that time,when i know that i lost this friend and this friendship, i felt lost...that time,i really cried bitterly...( from that day onwards,i changed..from a "water-tap" to a "hard-shell")that explains y even if the show or movie i watch is really touching,other people might cry but i won't...sometimes,it's either i stop myself from crying,or i really can't cry... coming to think of it,i really wish from the bottom of my heart that thier friendship don't break off...cause it's really such a pity... now,regarding my school projects, in maggie's grp, everything is going smooth except tat i got to w8 for the speaker to arrange a date and our grp got meet him again and this time both me and my sis has to go..

and for ETP,a little situation caught up,in my heart,i felt troubles coming...both of us gals are having different thoughts from our guys members....darm,i hope everything will be fine for tomorrow's discussion...i don't wish that because of this,our group's unite,team-work spirits breaks...

as for the up-coming shecdule,i have planned oreadi..gotta send agatha off at the changi airport...gonna miss her,partly,won't be able to see her in a few weeks times,might felt realli boring and lonely...and also might be worried abt her as well...

although,i am always seems to be surrounded with friends,but i felt lonely in my heart..i feel that,other people,is always so high up while i'm way down below...and,i am always unable to keep up with the rest..

but i am trying really hard to catch up and to improve and prove myself..and to stop thinking about the negative of cause..

do u guys noes that,during my sec 1 and 2 life, my negative thoughts almost get me killed!!i was so depressed with myself tt time...thns goodness,i take a slight change..so here i am..haha...

hmm..this few days,i have been asked by a few friends( i can't remember who,sorry bout it,friends..bad memories due to my tired body...not much strengthz to focus...)
about my opinium about my "idea bf"....sorry if i might have answer that,"didn't though about it"( i think i did answer it that way..") but actually,i think..people are consently changing,so you can't comfirm what type of person you prefer...as people grows,thier mindset about certain things change gradually...so i can't forseek or garanttee that i would diffinetely love a particular things like tt...also,if you guys(i can;t rmbr who again even if i tried..)keep asking me,i still would answer the same..

come on,those who knows me real well,or casually,should noes tt i don't have dating experience....lol...so is like you're asking a idoit here...(that's me..that's me..)that y,in the past,out of curosity,when i asked my girls frens what r they or y r they preparing presents in "special occasions" they they would say," ur still a kid...u won;t understand"..and it seems that it's a fact i might not noe abt it...lol...

ok..last but not least,to all my dear friends who are reading my blog,pls tag my blog...ok...and thnxs for reading my blog too...i wish all of u and myself,have a bright day and nights throught out the whole day everyday...

take care...

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Argh!!!!not enf cash!!!!


A few days ago,after my dinner with my borther and sister, i went window-shopping with my sister and my close friend agatha at west mall. we shopped from the 1st floor to the top floor.. we went into the comic collection cause my sister mention that she would like to look up to the latest range of new comic series..so we went in...when i went in,i was looking at all the books that were written by authors of movies,singers,artises and models.. i came across Joe's 2004's book(畅游人间) and i wanted to buy it,but due to lack of cash,i leave the shop disappointedly... I have the intendtion of collecting all joe's books.. haha..cause i'm his fans...haha... then,i'm gonna find a job and start saving now...i hope that one of these days,i can go visit taiwan and maybe,just maybe attend his autograph sessions too!!!! recently,been watching tian wai fei sian on channel U...ariel's show...super cute!!!! but they dubbed her voice..i guess maybe her voice is just a little not suitable for the character or the crew perfer it to be more sweeter and cuter sound.. today, my ETP lessons, my teacher said that the conclusion i did was completely wrong..i was a bit disappointed and guity...i wonder what my teacher will say tommorrow when we meet her..? hmm....by the way,i got to also rush over my survey...must do it quickly.... then also,when i went for my next lessons,my class adviser came in..she mention about the school holidays attachment...she went to me and ask me about it..i was still thinking about it...my sister did advise me that during the holidays i will have full of stuffs to do...and may not be able to handle it..so i think i might want to give it up... sometimes,too much is also not good... anyway, i will not give up till i try...that's what i remind myself.... (partly afraid that my negative thoughts and negative side of me will re-appear again so got to push myself forward..)

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Ok,new update again..


Well, quite a few handy of projects need to complete. But it was ok. i enjoy the process. I prefer to be busy than free. Still watching ISWAK and listening to the soundtrack over and over again. But,also updating myself with the latest news cum entertainment news. This coming sunday,i will be attending my cousin's wedding buffet. and on 9 dec will be attending my cousin's wedding tea. Still considering if to go on this coming sunday and what should i wear. I hope that if i really did went to my cousin's buffet this sunday,those auntie don't ask me silly question again like,do i boyfriend or like am i envy to see my cousin getting married... Coz i really do felt it is such a lame question. oh c'mon, i am afterall only a 18th...what do you aunties expect...also plus that i am only interested in my studies and furture. i don't have the extra time for other stuff... And besides, i am not a smart person,not a independence type of person not to mention that knowing how to take care of myself,i even lost my way easily(a directions idoit) so i got to work extra hard... Looking forward to the coming holidays, gotta send agatha off to the airport on her trip to india for her school's volunteering work. Then,CCAs and still planning on... Regarding the CCA,it's really pathetic and only 4 of my CCA mate turn up last saturday and boy,Mr Keith give them a really hard scolding. I wonder what will happen if i turn up on this saturday..i don't dare to think about it. But i hope to impress Mr Keith one of these days.and prove him wrong. ok,gonna stop here...i will keep updating asap...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Great day for me...



Hihi,i'm updating again...that's right....it's been a normal school day for me today....busy with school's projects.... I am watching ISWAK for the 4th time now...and i'm watching the last episode right now....and seems that i have yet to watch enough...i'm gonna watch it all over again for the 5th times... haha...i'm really crazy over it.... crazy over taiwanese drama series,the theme song(Say You Love Me), Ending song (Prank-恶作剧), the lead actor and actress (Joe Chang-郑元畅 & Ariel Lin-林依晨) and the "Cute Couple> Jiang Zhi Shu & Yuan Xiang Qin" in the drama too...super cute couple... ok,today,right after school,i went job junting at IMM with agatha and my sis...we're really mad...where ever we aim a target,we go for it...filling up forms,asking for vacancies...haha... hope i will get my idea job soon....

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Lastest Update on me...

Hihi,guys...
its like been a month since i last update on my blog entry...
hmmm...
ever since the last school holidays,i have been crazy over this taiwanese Drama Series,"It Started With A Kiss"....
Now,i am repeating it for the 4th time...
haha...also,i have been listening to it's soundtrack repeatly too...
lol...also,i have been staying up late everyday since the school holidays started...
even now,i'm stay up till 3am almost everyday...
ok,enough about the Shows...

Now,on my lastest update about my school life...
i've been quite busy lately,know why?

1st, My school projects...
event management and ETP....
got lots of research to do,planning too.....
BCM too...i need to start thinking about what i wanna write and present for my contents that must related to my topic...it's a little hard....

2nd,my CCA as in studio recording...every sat's pratices is like real stress...even though i know very well that i'm quite scared when facing the "teachers" but i am so stupic but bravely doing what i'm asked or suppost to do...

3rd, my progress test....i rememember that my teacher told the whole class that we are having our progress test soon...but i did not listen properly cause i was at that time busy at my own stuff that i didn't bother to notice about the date...
haiz...
so i have to follow ups on so many things...
also i have to follow ups on my Bs plans with my friends...
so that we can start Bs on time as we planned...

see,so much things to do...but i'm glad i'm busy cause i feel that it's better than your free...haha...ok,you may call me a workaholic....i do admit it...

ok,gonna pen off..
give me some comments alright...
take care...