Yeah!!! its holiday

finally,my hard work paid off...i think i got good results for my 1st CA tis yr.. and now,it's... Holidays!!!!! yup...that's right...i am having my school holidays now...a good time for me to relax after the stress period for the CA... hmm...i can say tt after since i have learn my lessons.. i am consider quite hard working right now... although i am having my holidays now...but i think,i'll just have a 1 week short break then maybe i'll go for a holidays job and maybe start working on the holidays assignment given by my teacher... yup... by the way,i just change my blogskin,and the music...hope you peeps like it... all of this blog,including the pictures and words were done by me.. it's a great surprise actually... hope u peeps like it... tag my blog and give me some comments... thnxs...

Times fly fast..

well,it's been like a month since i have last updated my blog entry...well,a lot has happen...and well,i don't wanna look back in the past,but of course,i'll keep the happy memories..coz i really do cherish them... ok,for quite some time,i have seem my friends in secondary..as all of us are now in the 2nd yr of ITE,a lot of changes come in us..really do miss those times spend together with em... haha... at gathering for the BBQ on 3 june 06,we r suppose to go in the sec sch for the ex-students gathering..its for students who graduated from siwss since 1987..and well,did meet my gals at the sch gate and we did saw lots of the seniors,my seniors, same bages schoolmates and CCA mates...but ended up we didn even step in! haha...coz its like,other people,for example,the NA or express students,they have lots of classes so is like they get to meet their lots of friends,but us...we only got this one pathetic class...4T1... So is like,we felt quite wierd to go in coz we didn really know the others.. So we went off having our own gathering somewhere nearby.. we had our dinner at the nearby coffeeshop...and of course,we had a long chat...chatting about what had happen to ourselves recently...ya...so get to share a lot of stories then here comes photo taking sessions...!!! all the photos were taken by shu ee,the maybe future photographer..haha good shot..!!! it was really a happy time coz i get to see you gals...since a long time...i wonder when i'll get to see you gals again...ah well,all the best to you gals alright...and stay in touch...!!!

Still not mood and no miricales..

haiz...its the 3rd week since 21st march 2006..and there's sitll no news at all... which i'm dying soon...everyone has started thier class and starting to absorb news knowleage where i'm am still no elsewhere..still lost...I went to see to the Section Head on 15 may and this is what she says:," your sis case is ok,i can still manage to squise her in but as for you,u got to wait patiently." not tt word,patiently again...i hv been told lots of time bout it...but yet my answer is all the same.. I pray to the god and even ask for a hint..my god says i can get in..but till now there's no news...i think my path wd be a dead one although i believe what my god says...coz i think my god just wanna let me feel good and told me that i can get in eh...which is well..fake... When is it my turn...ppl around been asking me which campus u gone to or which course r u at...but i can oni told them the real answer that im on waiting list...which is i clearly noe that they are looking down on me... And once again,im back to square-one..in the lonely and dark side of this world..which brings me back to the bad memory of when im in sec 1,which is realli horrible..and thinking abt it,and remembering im still on waiting list does hurts a lot... by the way,just bring a gd news which is half related to me,that is my sis,betty has sucessfully transfer from ITE Simei To ITE Clementi.. COngrats to her...but a sour feeling to me...T.T coz im still waiting...T.T and im blaming myself and hurting myself..pinching myself to let me remeber a lessons...a lessons tt i will never ever ever forget.... and now,this song "Had a bad day" is the song i hv been listening for quite a few months oreadi..been listening to it everyday...the melody explain my mood... Not gd... T.T T.T... ......................

Change of choice

well,i have call up the SH of admin a few days ago to change my appeal choice...also helped my sis to let the SH noe that she wanna transfer over too as she cannot take in the stress at simei and also might not be able to do well in accounts.. I'm still praying every single day...also wrote to MOE and SH of admin too..hope that i can get in the course as soon as possible.. I have oreadi miss the orientation week..don't wanna miss out the 1st week they start lessons.. come on,miricales..please come to me... I'm waiting...

still no mirecales

haiz...i still have no news abt it...i'm still waiting for a chance to go for my higher nitec, Accounts in ITE College East(Simei) I wanna go to the same school as my sis...poor her,got to go alone....today, is her 2nd day of sch..the 2nd day of me waking up so early just to help her prepare for school...
I misses all the good times in secondary school,same class with my sis, same class with my best grp of frens... if within this few days,still no news about my appeal..i might have to give up...and apply for CDAC,higher nitec admin..but i still don noe the ceft can go poly or not...so i am still thinking abt it..
i wanted so badly to go to my dream poly... i still wanted to go ITE College East (Simei) for accounts so badly..even though i noe,accounts is hard for me, i still insit on goin to ITE College East(Simei)..if i am give n the chance,and i got in the course,i will really put in a lot of efford and hard work..if i can get in,although is different class,but i don't mind...same school as my sis can liao... haiz... pray hard n still hope for it...

my mood is still down...

well,as it is still there..my mood is still affectted...i'm still down... still...worried and sad... can't help but thinking abt it... No perfection in struggled death, Just the pellet tearing lungs, limbs, sinews On an earth unforgiving And the gaping jaw - Each shiver a reminder of the frailty of life And death's dark hunger That will eat out raw each last breath. Who could deliver the bullet who saw that private war ? Death is no victory, but a bloodied mess. When I was born the sun lay down And time called out for clouds to lead me on But I refused to dance And set up all the wailings of the new born childBitter at my loss, Saddened by my plight, Born to dust and earth And dreary endless blight.

my furture for this year is still a mistery...

well,other ppl has know what is coming up next for them... me?...i am still lost...feeling helpless and fear... i hope that i really can get into a better condition soon...i guess... at least i still have that little bit of confidence in me....but it just can't get outta my mind...it is still weighting heavily in my mind and heart as its such an serious and important matter to me... come on,i'm not that bad-luck gal am i....?pls.... i don't believe it...i just don't believe that with my sincere attitude i can't get it right.... wish for all the best in me... don't ask me why cause it might sadden me again...

because i can onli face this alone...no one can help me but myself...

Life....is just a journey....

Life...is full of ups and downs....surprise...happiness....sadness...and things that happen out of wat u think.... when things get hard....u can onli try and take it easy,face the challenges that has happen to u... after some times,things get better,that is the time when u got all ur "Good" results... tml is the day im goin to simei....gotta see the section head there personal and that gives me kinda freak out...a little scary....but i gotta face it...no body can help....even if both of my frens comes along wif me... i stil gotta face it alone,by myself... it's up to me,myself... onli i can help myself... if i can't...my life would be ruined under my own hands.... wish my luck....

Bad mood

Just as i expected...mine is always not so smooth...the results out...and...well,i really don't wish to write it here...i am too sad...it'll make me cried more...some of u know what's going on...so,don;t need me to repeat....haiz....more waiting ahead....waiting for amiracle... but,congrats to weiling,betty and agatha for making it to simei...congrats!!!!

I'm might gonna have a doggie soon...

Well,i am so excited about the adobtion..you see...recently,my dad check on a web site of a company named "ADS"short for actions for dogs saved...then we check it out... well,we found one black dog named shadow...she's a morgerl mix slightly with labrador blood... she is only 1yrs 3 months...she has got very good balck in colour coat...and was healthy... she was born a stray but she has got a owner... the ASD people though that she has found a "Forever Home"..living in a big bagulow with a big garden....but then,ended up she was chained up in the back yard for the past whole year....poor thing...she don't deserved that... so i really hope to adobt shadow... well,i am so nervous about the results of which campus i'll be sent to.... hoping and wishing hard that i can really really get into simei ITE.... really really hope...please.....please.....

A whole of unfairness,unhappiness,sufferings,disease and more......!!!

This is a world full of unfairness,hate,sufferings,unhappiness and more.....people are being treated unfairly....people oftern junge by the looks,and not the characters,or the good points....They only choose people with beautiful faces(which is a vase)and not the people with real protential,charachter and good points....Those who are a "VASE"were just a fool....They ain't smart....they would normally said that they were kind-hearted,helpful,loyal and all good things...but that's not really true....they are often just a "VASE",who would be showing off,acting kind,acting loyal,just helping for the sake....not doing housechores,gaining good things,and being pampered a lot...just because they are bueatifull or handsome. They do not knkow what is called a "Hardship"....Thier hardship were just simple things.... Simple things like being accused....or just not being able to get the best out of all..it is just such a daft(silly) thing....and that is what their "Hardship" is about...but what about those who were left out,being abandone....?their "hardships" are being treated unfairly...accused for something they did not or dare not to do....yet they can't rebell back....doing extra things that is not meant to be thier duties...thier "Hardships" are the real,hard ups.... But,what can u blame in this world but yourself? there's no one u can blame....it is no ones faults.....not even you...it is only a luck....just a good or bad luck....if if that's your life ,a hard life or good life....you gonna live it that way....no other choice....besides,you can only cherish and treasure what you have now...once it is gone,it is gone forever...it will never come back...and also,never never EVER regret what you have done caurse what's done cannot be undone....

Valentine's Day

Hihi,it is valentine's day..... Is a special day for people to have time with thier loves ones. HaPpY VaLeNtInE's DaY!!! today,i spend my time with my friends(weiling,agatha)with my sis...at bukit panjang plaza. Today,acutally shu ee and tian ling surppose to come..but...as time is getting late...we decide not to ask them here...we sms them tell them not to come...instead we ask them to rest at home... We window shop in bukit pajang plaza...there's a lot of couple today...wow....soon it was late..we decide to have our dinner...we had korean spicy noodle and shu shi which we brough earlier on....it was tasty....lol.... Then it was time to go home...we farewell to weiling and head to the exit...as we just came out of the mall,there...is a pet shop out side the mall...there were cute little pets inside...we went inside to have a look.... The pet dog was so cute....it remind me of my last pet dog,Sandy....i miss her a lot....i wonder how is her....then after that,we head off to take bus home....when i rearch home,every one in my house were alseep...i took my bath,check my mails,update my blog then off to bed....

Eating at shu ee's hse...

Yesterday,i went to shu ee's house for dinner....it's her mum's treat...we are suppose to rearch there at 6.30pm...but,tian ling is still at school...so we have to wait for her....while waiting for her at her place...weiling arrived here...so we just chit chat a little....then agatha arrived with tian ling....finally,but tian ling need to get a bath cause she is leaking bad smell as she just finish her painting at school....while it take her some time to finish bathing and get dressing up...finally,off we go to shu ee's house.... When we arrived....i saw the pei hwa sec 2s student....they were so excited....but they were not gonna eat as they are waiting for their care teacher Jill...so we go ahead and had our dinner 1st...i had a fun time eating at shu ee's house...her mum cooks us plasta and rice,vinegar chicken and vegetables soup....it is delicous alright...After our dinner,we played majong...haha....as they were about 6 of us playing so 2 of us have to take turns..so i stick with shu ee's sis)shu ting) who is not really good at it....and betty stick to agatha as she is not good at majong too...so the games starts... Well,shu ting's really lucky that she got a good stack of the game...but a pity,she is not lucky enough to win the round...and the winner for this round is tian ling...finally,jill arrived and the pei hwa girls finally have thier dinner together with jill and shu ee....ok,back to the majong....second round,is me...my turn,well,i got really bad luck in it...my deck aren't as good as hers...well,but it was just a game afterall...what matters most is fun...hehe...the next round,as shu ting needs to take a bath so shu ee comes and play...shu ee was not good at this game as well,so i'll just stick with her and watch and help her a little here and there.... Well,shu ee's deck arent good as well....and of course she did not win this round...weiling did...her luck was good...then as it was getting late...we decide to play for the last round before we went home..so is my turn,and betty too....well,this round,weiling win again...i can say that she really is very lucky...haha...but it was fun...it was such a long time back since i had play majong with em....well...it was a very memoriam moments...i'm gonna thanks shu ee for inviting us to her place for a dinner...i really had fun there....it was a wonderful time that i will not forget....

Friendship House Visit on Lunar New Year

on 31 jan 06,we went for a house visit...
1st stop weiling's place...neat,tidy...her mum cook us lunch...nice too...we had curry,soup,rice....hehe...
then next stop,shu ee's house...neat too,but it was just a little decorated...then we spent some time gambling at her place...i'm the worst among them...i lost quite a lot of money...but luckily my sis help me recoup back my capital..haha..
next stop,my place...lol...i change my shoe then rest a short while,about 30 minutes i think,then off to tian ling's place...her place is well decorated..very neat too...her mum offer us some drinks and snacks,but all of us were quite full with all the snacks we ate ealier on...stay quite long then off to agatha's place...
finally went to her house...nice,wide,windy too...i love her house's floor...wooden floor...lol...then she show us lots of her photos,and CD albums...
finally,it was time for dinner...we sit around the round table...then here goes the munching....her grandmum's cook is great...the food is delicous...we had,curry with french toast,bee hoon,fried chicken wings...after that,got our red packets...off to west mall...
farewell to them as they are just gonna walk around in westmall...then off to meet my mum....
then wow,my mum is well dress...lol...then off to espane...for the lantern....

the picture for the graduation on 19 jan 06

ok..as i promise..here is the picture taken on my graduation...

Biggest cleaning up at home today for the coming chinese new year...

On 19 jan 06 is my Nitec graduation at dover ITE....it is a very facinating sight there...everyone attending is dressed so formal and is in office wear....including me and my friends.... After we all have went up the stage one by one,class by class,level by level to get our "cert" which is just a file for us to put our cert in... We got to line up to get our certificat at the counter setted up just outside the exit of the auditorium..but it was such a long qeue so me and my friends(agatha,jan,shera,weiling) went downstairs to grab a bite that they have provide there... After the eating,we took a couple of shoots...agatha was a photo queen,she really love to take photo...lol...after the photo taking,we went back up again to get our cert then off back home... It was such a relieve and also a touching sence too...i would never forget this...it is one of the best memories i had in my whole life....my graduation photo will be posted up in the next post... Well,chinese new year coming...and of course,my family have a big clean up today...now,my house is so sparkling clean...yeah.... everything is so clean and neat...my new clothings for the house visit during chinese new year is all done up...it is all ready...haha...i am so excited....there will be a lot of snacks there,relatives and other peoples will be dressed nicely...

i wish for the hardest i want...

my darkess time..i dono when it will come to an end....but i hope tt my prayers work...and also,with the support of my frens and family...i believe that i can work things out...and i a, believe that i have a chance....today,is the 3rd last day of this yr...2005...time flys real fast...a blink of my eyes and now i see that a year is gonna past by soon...and after the countdown party for nxt yr has end...2006 is arrived...i can be considered that i have graduated from swiss cottage secondary school for 2 yrs and ITE college west(clementi).... i am so glad...to know many people....although...they are not counted as a fren of mine...but they are my classmate...i know that i will miss them no matter if i hate them,detest them,dislike them in the past..... now,i jus wan to corcentrade in my job and studies...the rest...i don wan to care much... i am sorry that i have hurt some of you...just wan to let you all noe that if i have hurt...i don mean it..but do hope that u can think from my point of view... and also,even if u cant be my "special" fren,but u can still be my fren...u n i may not keep in touch often...but u can jus try to read my blog sometimes....knowing how i'm doing...and so on... i am gonna miss u all...thns for the fun,joy,shorrow,tortures and happiness you guys have shared with me..thnxs a lot...i will cherish that perious memories you all have given to me...thnxs...

My all times favourite band(S club 7)

well,i came to know abt s club 7 when im a P5 kid....tt time,every one in school is busy talking and exchanging thier news on S club 7...S club is popular around my place too...i like to buy their album but tt time,im too young to think abt it...so i was unalbe to get one...till today.... then,sec 3 tt year,i got a karaokae compeition in my own CCA...my group sang the "Have you ever" by S club 7...tts the very 1st S club song i learn....it became my all times favourite...no matter how many time i listen to tis song...i still love it a lot.... for now,im able to afford it wif my own money,jus tt i gotta work and earn my own allowance...i have got a hard time looking for it...but i hope tt i can manage to get all 4 of thier albums,thier 1 and only MTV's album,their 7 movies CDs and maybe thier posters...hopefully... i don noe if i am too late for it...but i hope and wished tt i can at the least got one of thier CD with the songs"Have you ever"....i am glad and happy enf...im content jus tt....and i believe tt S club 7 will come back all 7 of them,come back togeter as a band again...and perform again...

[[* TOday went shopping at west mall for offfice wear.. *]]

What is a Friend? Someone who's there to hold your hand to say the words "I understand" To listen when you need them there Who's by your side to show they care To share your laughs, and smile with you erase the frown, when you are blue who at a call, is by your side To whom you know you can confide A shoulder there, for you to cry A tissue too, to wipe them dry An ear that's there, for you to use A helping hand, you'll never loose Someone to hug, when things go wrong to keep you going, make you strong Most precious gift that life could send so hold on tight to your best friend FriendsForever!

well,as some of you noe...i got a job thru meiling..it's at rafflets place...gotta wear semi formal..but the promblem is...i got NO formal or semi formal clothings...as some of you know..my style of wear is funky...rock...pop....cool....so...i went to shop for clothings today at west mall...hmm...onli manage to brought 3 office tops for $33 at Giordano. well,tot i could onli mange to get these for today..then went to my place's area for dinner wif mum,sis and bro...went to shop around again...then,i manage to buy one more office slippers and a bottom to match one of my tops tt i brought today...to happy...quite cheap..but its more than my expected burget...argh*gonna reali saved up when i got my pay....nid to pay for family's expenses...and my own for the sch fees....yup..for the graudation in yr2006 Jan,im gonna wear one of my semi-formal to it...haha...save up again...haha... then i also brought a top,green in color...funky one...to match a japanese bottom jeans tt i brough last yr for nxt yr's new year...haha...save up again...when did i become so smart...haha...nth lah..jus joking...hmm...tot tt my internet will be shut down till nxt yr april then can use...but its seems tt it can be used till nxt yr..dono lah...maybe mum is not comfirm wif the time....so she told me is november shut down..so maybe all of u readers might be able continued to read my life stories...haha...ok..shall end here....bye~

job interview...

well,i dono y my internet is still on..but nvm..haha...okk...today went to have my job interview....hmm...dress up quite ok lah...with high heels...ooo.....scary wor.....then i went wif my friends for the 1st job interview,Watson...hmm....i arrived there and wow...a lot of ppl....and all of them were adults...dressed so nicely and so formal....look at myself....ar....sure cannot...so never went for tt...then i went to the job agencies....fill in the form....ok..abt 45 mins....then off to my last interview...and bugis....hmm....its a gift shop....coz is 2 by 2 interviews...my sis went wif one of my friend...but im alone for that interview coz we lack of one more....so i went in alone....ar....ok lah...a bit nervous...but did quite nicely not like the school's interview test...then the boss tell us that she will contact us again....so ok lor...then after that,we went shopping!!!! yeah!!! 1 st went into a chrsitian shop to buy chirstmas card...omg....its very expensive...cost $6.80 for 6 cards...well,i did buy a pack of it coz the design is super nice...hopefully i send to my fren will like it bah...argh...then went home...my ankle and foot hurt a lot...due to long hours wearing high heels for shopping....haiz....pain sia....gonna rest...tata~~~

cold day..woot!

My friends i know throught NDP2005...

Xue Ping and yvonne,my ITE nitech classmate and friends...
PLSH and WBSA,my ite nitech frens,i will miz u all a lot.....
StrenghtZ,my sec sch frens,i miz them a lot... and also will keep the happiness u have given to me...

today is the 2nd day of my exam but the last day of exam for the PLSH bcoz i still got BKK after tt,i can then enjoy my holidays....today is a cold day..wet weather...woot....everyone is school is so cold that most of them are wearing jackets and sweater... today,is testing on OFP...hmm....its an 1 1/2 hour exam...i tot it is such a long hour...but jus a blink,time passes so fast..leaving onli 1/2 hour and i am still at section B(visitor's register) omg....i quickly finish section B then go on to sec C....well,i am expected to do onli one of the 2 question,so i quickly answer question 24 which is the last question for section C.... look at my watch,onli 5 minutes left...i check through my answers....then im all done...came out of my exam room...mit up wif the PLSH...well,see sue and helene wearing wind breakers and jackets...poor helene,i think she caught a cold...(helene,take care...ya...) then chit chat with them a little...then go home....after tml,my ite NITECH yr 1 life will end...so i display some of the photo i took wif my frens i know tis yr,my family(PLSH) i know,and my Gang(StrengthZ).....PLSH u can open ur surprise either today or tml...hope u like it...i spent some time n effort in it...by the way,i have to annouce one thing here.... and that is,today is the last day of me updating my blog,u got to wait till furhter updates untill nxt year march...due to my internet is going to be cut off for 4 months...so i am unable to suf the net,MSN chatting,play online games and of coz, blogging...so guys n gals,my friends, and my FAMILY(u noe who u r...),pls w8 for my updates nxt yr at around march...ok....i will update imediately when my internet sever is back on again....thnx so much for all who hv been reading my blog...thnx u.... and thnxs for giving me such a wonderful and a beautiful memories with u guys in my ITE NITECH school life...i love u all....thnx u so much....i will miz u all....c u all nxt yr march...bye...take care....hope to c u all again soon....