Rushing of Projects and graduating soon

Now is the critical time for me. Gotta finish my projects in time n to prepare for the exams..
stress!!!!
btw, My friend, Nut, participated in the audition for Cao Ji Xing Guang Da Dao on Saturday,18 Feb 08, and she make it to the 2nd round. On e 2nd round, she make it to TOP 20!!!!!
i'm so happy for her. Hope that she'll be able to pursue her dreams, n i oso wish that my dreams would come true...

X'mas round d corner

Xmas round d corner.. but I'm just as excited as most people would be.. on that eve,I'll be hanging out with my friends... and on the day, I'll be with my family...

Suddenly, felt that in this world, i always know that I'm not the most unfortunate person but can't help that, compare myself to my siblings, to my dear true friends, I'm still lonely.. in my heart... comparing a lot of my quality with those around me, I don't sees any good of me...

I wanted to work hard, to improve it all, but somehow, it always fails or does not work...

I hoped that one day my dreams and wishes come trues.. and that day, I'll be happy and content with no worries...

Full House Rox!!!

Just 2 days ago,i finished watching 2004 K-drama,Full House, casted by Song Hye Kyo, Rain(Bi),Kim Sung Soo and Han Eun Jeong.

It's a great show and very addictive too. lol.. i would definitely re-watch it all over again..lol.. I love the ending of the drama too..The OST of the drama were very nice especially, "I think I" by Byul, "Why" by Rain(Bi), and Geu Deh Ji Geum. I love dramas that contains comedy and romance at the same time.. it so funny yet so nice...lol..

My Jack Russel Terrier,Amber

Such Adorable Expressions!

Smile! =]

Amber In Her Shirt =)


Ok, as i have mention b4, my family had adopted a female, 2 1/2 yr old jack Russel terrier,actually,she's only 1 yr 6 month old..

And she's so cute... all of us, loved her so much... We took quite some numbers of her photograph..and here's some to show...

High School Musical Still ROxs and is on the House Soon!!!

Yeah! High School Musical is still rocking on and the sequels (High School Musical 2)is up soon in USA on 17 Aug 2007...

Hoping it'll arrive here soon..

New Puppy

Hey,i'm back with an exciting story here...about 2 weeks ago,i adopted a new puppy. A 2 1/2 yr old white and brown Jack Rusell Terrier named Amber. She's very small in size but is hyper active and abmitions. She's quite a unqiue dog for her breed as normally, normal JRT would either have both ears up and tall or dropping down. but not hers,she has 1 ear up and another dropping down which we find it unqie,special and cute.

Since the 1st day she came to our family,me, my sister and my brother have been taking care of her since then. Since the 3 of us are her owner or master, everyday, 3 of us,each has our own roles and task that is in charge of.

For me,i am the "care and responsible giver". I have to take care of her food,water and to maintain her health as she's a "heaty body" type of conditions. Every morning, before i go to school,i have to bring her out for a walk. As she is toilet trained outdoors,it's a must for me to bring her out every morning so that she can pees and poo. Also, when she's being naughty and pees or poo at home,i have to do the cleaning.

For my brother, he is the "playmate". As my brother is younger and better in spots and playing, he plays with amber, games like tur of war and fetch. He also has to take her out on a walk,often in the afternoon. Other than that, my brother also sometimes has to be in charge of cleaning her pees and poo at home when we're not at home as our parents are not allow to help us take care of her.

For my sister, she is the "baby-sister" who will train her mostly(even though 3 of us has to train her), and to coax her to sleep every night. She also has to take note of the stock of Amber's food, pet sheets and doggie snacks. When the stock is out, me and my sister will have to go buy and store it up.

Also every evening the 3 of us we try to take Amber out to walk. As it's cooler in night, 3 of us often spent longer time. And every thursday and sunday,me and my sister will have to bath her to keep her clean and refreshing.

Amber,although sometimes creates trouble and being naughty,but there's a sweet,cute,adorable side of her. Sometimes,she's quite obedience too...

Sch Reopen for a week already..

Finally,school reopen..i had a boring holidays..
But it was relaxing..
Now,sch reopens..quite stressful...going to school is no longer as relax as the past..
But i'm learning to cope with stress,sch work,exams and of coz obstacles..

I am so looking forward to graduating.. there's still about 9 months more to go...

S.H.E-Play

Wow,S.H.E has released their latest album-Play
It rox!

Unhappy Incident

A new school Terms has started..

Although some unhappy incident happen last week...but today onwards,i'll try to face it, calmly, bravely and with right decisions..

I'll try to change all my bad points.. but, end of the day, i'm still me..

Best of all, i'll try to improve on how to express my own feelings and thinkings instead of crying when felt sad,angry and so much to explain.

Jiayou!

PS: I'm still me, no matter what others think, i am still me. If they hates me, i got no choice because friends will take in your good points as well as your bad points..

Tomorrow's the result day

Well,2 weeks since the start of holidays have pass. Tml is the result day and i pretty nervous about my result.. Wonder how did i do it for this time round.. Praying hard that it's ok.. Another 2 more weeks,my holidays will end. I'm gonna enjoy this holiday and get myself ready for a brand new me,and a brand new semester..

Exams Coming~~~~

Well,times flew fast...just a wink and here arrives march... Exams just around the corner...everyone must be really busy preparing for exams.. glad that all of projects were cleared just in time.. Now,just recently, i got to know my marks for my EVM projects, i got a high B. but i am aiming for an A. But as for what i'm told from my teacher,i have to score 95 marks and above for my exam in order to get an A. Omg...that's really hard... We are a bage of unfortunate Business Admin student because after last bage's took their paper and were telling how easy their paper is,this year onwards, all our paper were set really hard.. And really unfortunately, we are the 1st bage to took this hard paper... Omg!!! Haiz.. no choice.. got to really push to the limit to score an A. Yesterday,i went with my sis and mum to Vivo City to visit tian ling at work. When we arrive, she's alone in the shop. We chat with her for awhile while she shows us her "customer service skills". After that, we went window shopping. as we window-shop, i saw tian ling's having her dinner alone in the shop. Poor tian ling, can really tells she's lonely and struggling. After window-shop, went back to tian ling's shop, and asked if the boss wanna hire part-timers, a pity, she does't want to hire any at the moment. till around 9.30pm went stright home. On the way to MRT stations, receive an SMS from tian ling, can sense from her SMS she's quite sad and disappointed. Hope that she's alright. Anyway, it's quite a tiring yet fun trip to Vivo City. Hope that everyone will be doing fine.. Arrive at home, take a bath, then stright away, i watched the repeat of 100% entertainment. Wow, they were having Hana Kimi's Celebrations. Wu Chun were really naughty to keep disturbing Jiro. Danson's facial expression and reaction were quite cute. Though he seems a bit off.(Blur) after watching, went to bed at 2.30pm. And woke up quite late this morning at 12.15pm... got to get ready for my CCA later.. Cya..

My latest updates-pix of Danson Tang Yu Zhe

Been some times since i update my entries..

well,this few days been a little busy...of course with school work...

a lot has happen for this past few weeks..

a week ago,taiwanese idol actress Beastie Hus Wei Lun met with an car accident and had died. All her celebrities friends and family were heart-broken.

Then i just finish watching Zhong Ji Yi Ban, a taiwan Idol drama acted by, Jiro Wang, Arron Yan, Calvin(Fahrenhiet Members) and Danson Tang Yu Zhe. Cool SHow.. And am looking forward to thier second season, Zhong Ji Yi Jia.

Still catching up on Latest Taiwan Idol Drama, Hana Kimi (Hua Yang Shao Nian Shao Nu), Acted by Jiro Wang, Wu Chun(Fahrenheit member) and Danson Tang Yu Zhe. Very nice..and it's gonna boardcast on singapore's channel U on the 15/2/07, mon-fri at 7pm. i am really excited over it.

Been listening to Danson Tang's 1st song, , the ending song of Zhong Ji Yi Jia.Very nice song. At the same time,his new song is his 1st song that is going to be record in his first debute albums.

PS: his 1st debute album is in the process of recording songs...

My own event held on 2/2/07 just over. I was lucky that it went smoothly although there's a slight delay. And i just finish helping out my classmate's group's event yesterday. i felt a great statifiations.

Up-coming will be my ETP presentations and BCM individual Presentations. I have only started on my BCM individual powerpoint slides a few days ago while my ETP group presentations is going to start as soon as possible as we are going to present soon next week.

And last saturday,i have went to IMM to watch fahrenheit...wow! a lot of fans were there for fahrenheit autograph sessions..i am suppose to go for it as well but ended up watching from the side because there's such a long Q....so i didn't went up the stage to get the autograph..what a pity,somemore i did bring along fahrenheit album that day...

ok..i gtg...take care..

Very slack school weeks

Today,again,i went to school and slack...didn't really had any lessons becoz of CCA fair, talks, events and trips going on and in school...

today went to a talk organised by my fren's classmates..a talk about SPI...cool eh...SPI people showed us photos and videos..
We gets to know quite some info abt what is SPI all about..

then,after my talk,i went to canteen and wait for a little while,had my lunch,then i went to the CCA fair. went to MPH,waiting..then finally,watch my seniors( from my CCA, studio recording) performing...senior indeed..they are really up to standard whereas i still got to brush up a lot on my skills and a lot more to learn..haha..

after the talk,went back to class...my teacher was busy with his stuff,our class just sat in classroom doing nothing...
30 mins gone and went to e nxt lessons,finish up the assessment given by the teacher and meet up with agatha and head back home~

slacking day,yup...

1st day of sch in 2007

Ok,normally,today is the 1st day of sch for all students in singapore(n maybe other countries too) but for me,yes,it's my 1st day of sch in 2007,but not my 1st day of sch in my 1st yr in ITE...for me,it's been half e yr alreayd,so i felt kinda new...haha...cause i don hv such experiences in the past..this is counted as my 1st time..so it's kinda fresh to me..

Holidays over,school days back...just came to school reopening,a lot of things coming up,like projects,exams..and the one i fear most is oral presentations because i don't have much confident in that...

i hope everything will be just fine for everyone n myself..

just gotta go..take care,all of u out there..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Yeah,Finally...The Year 2007 has arrived...
thinking back in 2006,a lot has happen...and of cause,i have gain a lot and lost some...
but i am happy with my results in 2006..
now,i have new goasl to acheive in 2007...i hope that all my wishes will come true..and hope that my life in 2007 will be even better...

Merry X'mas

Hihi,readers,friends too.. it's been some time since i last update my blog.. glad to know that one of my best friend,agatha flew back to singapore from india safely.. been really crazy about joe cheng,ariel,S.H.E and Fahrenheit... well,these has been my hot idol lately...hope i will continued to support them..ya... now,holidays been a little boring to me in the begining..but,of coz..been really happy..i make new friends in my forums too...international friends and local friends too... got to know quite a lot of new stuffs... Recently just met my seniors in my CCAs,wow..we the juniors group were quite shy...afterall,the number of seniors outnumbered us...but i hope that we'll get over it soon.. now,our teacher is starting to teach us singing skills..1st,starting from breathing excersie..it's really hard..we have to learn to use diaphram...but glad that teacher says that all of us are improving... i hope i will do better this coming week..

Tense up!!!!!Stress!!!!!

hello,you guys and gals out there,i'm updating again.... Today,is quite a painful start of the day....i have a bad headach when i got up in the morning... the pain last all the way till in school.. i was not able to concertrade or focus much even i did tried a few times... i guess,i might be falling sick and maybe be ill heavily...(i'm not the type of person who would fall sick easily,but i fall sick,i will be realli sick.. and i am reali stubborn that i pretend not to be sick,and other people don't know abt it,not even my own family..) cause,as usually,i sleep at 3am and wake up at 8am...i'm used to it..(cause i am still watching It started with a kiss for the 5th time now...haha...) even now,my brain still feels hurt at the back.. after my 1st lessons,i have 2 hr break so i went to sort of "disturb" my frens who were on duty at the milo push cart... today,a special "guest" appear,who my sis and my classmate noe.. they were chatting and i was listening too... i was shock when zy says that he had the intendtion of throwing away the gifts...(the 1st thing come to my mind is that,such a waste of money,efford and effords of the designer) and he was thinking of maybe giving it away other gals in our class... me,my sis and my close fren tried to persue him...and he was really angry with my god-sis... actually,i can understand how he feel,standing from his stand point...but at the same time,standing at my god-sis's point of view,she's not at wrong either... it's all a big misunderstanding..so i tot it's not worth it if they friendship just breaks off...it's a pity that i felt if they realli break thier friendship over such matters... i have came across such matters in the past(and it still hurts when i think about it)and i lost a friend,a friendship... that time,when i know that i lost this friend and this friendship, i felt lost...that time,i really cried bitterly...( from that day onwards,i changed..from a "water-tap" to a "hard-shell")that explains y even if the show or movie i watch is really touching,other people might cry but i won't...sometimes,it's either i stop myself from crying,or i really can't cry... coming to think of it,i really wish from the bottom of my heart that thier friendship don't break off...cause it's really such a pity... now,regarding my school projects, in maggie's grp, everything is going smooth except tat i got to w8 for the speaker to arrange a date and our grp got meet him again and this time both me and my sis has to go..

and for ETP,a little situation caught up,in my heart,i felt troubles coming...both of us gals are having different thoughts from our guys members....darm,i hope everything will be fine for tomorrow's discussion...i don't wish that because of this,our group's unite,team-work spirits breaks...

as for the up-coming shecdule,i have planned oreadi..gotta send agatha off at the changi airport...gonna miss her,partly,won't be able to see her in a few weeks times,might felt realli boring and lonely...and also might be worried abt her as well...

although,i am always seems to be surrounded with friends,but i felt lonely in my heart..i feel that,other people,is always so high up while i'm way down below...and,i am always unable to keep up with the rest..

but i am trying really hard to catch up and to improve and prove myself..and to stop thinking about the negative of cause..

do u guys noes that,during my sec 1 and 2 life, my negative thoughts almost get me killed!!i was so depressed with myself tt time...thns goodness,i take a slight change..so here i am..haha...

hmm..this few days,i have been asked by a few friends( i can't remember who,sorry bout it,friends..bad memories due to my tired body...not much strengthz to focus...)
about my opinium about my "idea bf"....sorry if i might have answer that,"didn't though about it"( i think i did answer it that way..") but actually,i think..people are consently changing,so you can't comfirm what type of person you prefer...as people grows,thier mindset about certain things change gradually...so i can't forseek or garanttee that i would diffinetely love a particular things like tt...also,if you guys(i can;t rmbr who again even if i tried..)keep asking me,i still would answer the same..

come on,those who knows me real well,or casually,should noes tt i don't have dating experience....lol...so is like you're asking a idoit here...(that's me..that's me..)that y,in the past,out of curosity,when i asked my girls frens what r they or y r they preparing presents in "special occasions" they they would say," ur still a kid...u won;t understand"..and it seems that it's a fact i might not noe abt it...lol...

ok..last but not least,to all my dear friends who are reading my blog,pls tag my blog...ok...and thnxs for reading my blog too...i wish all of u and myself,have a bright day and nights throught out the whole day everyday...

take care...

Argh!!!!not enf cash!!!!

A few days ago,after my dinner with my borther and sister, i went window-shopping with my sister and my close friend agatha at west mall. we shopped from the 1st floor to the top floor.. we went into the comic collection cause my sister mention that she would like to look up to the latest range of new comic series..so we went in...when i went in,i was looking at all the books that were written by authors of movies,singers,artises and models.. i came across Joe's 2004's book(畅游人间) and i wanted to buy it,but due to lack of cash,i leave the shop disappointedly... I have the intendtion of collecting all joe's books.. haha..cause i'm his fans...haha... then,i'm gonna find a job and start saving now...i hope that one of these days,i can go visit taiwan and maybe,just maybe attend his autograph sessions too!!!! recently,been watching tian wai fei sian on channel U...ariel's show...super cute!!!! but they dubbed her voice..i guess maybe her voice is just a little not suitable for the character or the crew perfer it to be more sweeter and cuter sound.. today, my ETP lessons, my teacher said that the conclusion i did was completely wrong..i was a bit disappointed and guity...i wonder what my teacher will say tommorrow when we meet her..? hmm....by the way,i got to also rush over my survey...must do it quickly.... then also,when i went for my next lessons,my class adviser came in..she mention about the school holidays attachment...she went to me and ask me about it..i was still thinking about it...my sister did advise me that during the holidays i will have full of stuffs to do...and may not be able to handle it..so i think i might want to give it up... sometimes,too much is also not good... anyway, i will not give up till i try...that's what i remind myself.... (partly afraid that my negative thoughts and negative side of me will re-appear again so got to push myself forward..)

Ok,new update again..

Well, quite a few handy of projects need to complete. But it was ok. i enjoy the process. I prefer to be busy than free. Still watching ISWAK and listening to the soundtrack over and over again. But,also updating myself with the latest news cum entertainment news. This coming sunday,i will be attending my cousin's wedding buffet. and on 9 dec will be attending my cousin's wedding tea. Still considering if to go on this coming sunday and what should i wear. I hope that if i really did went to my cousin's buffet this sunday,those auntie don't ask me silly question again like,do i boyfriend or like am i envy to see my cousin getting married... Coz i really do felt it is such a lame question. oh c'mon, i am afterall only a 18th...what do you aunties expect...also plus that i am only interested in my studies and furture. i don't have the extra time for other stuff... And besides, i am not a smart person,not a independence type of person not to mention that knowing how to take care of myself,i even lost my way easily(a directions idoit) so i got to work extra hard... Looking forward to the coming holidays, gotta send agatha off to the airport on her trip to india for her school's volunteering work. Then,CCAs and still planning on... Regarding the CCA,it's really pathetic and only 4 of my CCA mate turn up last saturday and boy,Mr Keith give them a really hard scolding. I wonder what will happen if i turn up on this saturday..i don't dare to think about it. But i hope to impress Mr Keith one of these days.and prove him wrong. ok,gonna stop here...i will keep updating asap...

Great day for me...

Hihi,i'm updating again...that's right....it's been a normal school day for me today....busy with school's projects.... I am watching ISWAK for the 4th time now...and i'm watching the last episode right now....and seems that i have yet to watch enough...i'm gonna watch it all over again for the 5th times... haha...i'm really crazy over it.... crazy over taiwanese drama series,the theme song(Say You Love Me), Ending song (Prank-恶作剧), the lead actor and actress (Joe Chang-郑元畅 & Ariel Lin-林依晨) and the "Cute Couple> Jiang Zhi Shu & Yuan Xiang Qin" in the drama too...super cute couple... ok,today,right after school,i went job junting at IMM with agatha and my sis...we're really mad...where ever we aim a target,we go for it...filling up forms,asking for vacancies...haha... hope i will get my idea job soon....

Lastest Update on me...

Hihi,guys...
its like been a month since i last update on my blog entry...
hmmm...
ever since the last school holidays,i have been crazy over this taiwanese Drama Series,"It Started With A Kiss"....
Now,i am repeating it for the 4th time...
haha...also,i have been listening to it's soundtrack repeatly too...
lol...also,i have been staying up late everyday since the school holidays started...
even now,i'm stay up till 3am almost everyday...
ok,enough about the Shows...

Now,on my lastest update about my school life...
i've been quite busy lately,know why?

1st, My school projects...
event management and ETP....
got lots of research to do,planning too.....
BCM too...i need to start thinking about what i wanna write and present for my contents that must related to my topic...it's a little hard....

2nd,my CCA as in studio recording...every sat's pratices is like real stress...even though i know very well that i'm quite scared when facing the "teachers" but i am so stupic but bravely doing what i'm asked or suppost to do...

3rd, my progress test....i rememember that my teacher told the whole class that we are having our progress test soon...but i did not listen properly cause i was at that time busy at my own stuff that i didn't bother to notice about the date...
haiz...
so i have to follow ups on so many things...
also i have to follow ups on my Bs plans with my friends...
so that we can start Bs on time as we planned...

see,so much things to do...but i'm glad i'm busy cause i feel that it's better than your free...haha...ok,you may call me a workaholic....i do admit it...

ok,gonna pen off..
give me some comments alright...
take care...

Lasted update about my life...

Betty,Jessie and Me
Our class photo shot
Betty,Me and Agatha

Ok,just a couple of weeks ago,i went to simei ITE for my performance. It was fun and tiring..plus i had a sore foot due to my damage kok shoes that i wore...it's spoit actually,but my mother refuse to buy 1 new pair for me so i got to wear the old and damage shoes. Luckily, a new friend borrow me her extra pair of shoes. We wore makes up,ITE school tie and the blazor for the performances. It's my 1st time i'm wearing a blazor so it's kinda uncomfortable. I ok with the school tie as i did learn and know how to do up a tie whereas i get the chances to go around helping other people including my own sis to do up thier ties..lol... After that, a minute after,all the girls were busy with thier own make-uping..that including me... agatha and javien brought along her digital cam,and we did took a few shots together as friends and classmates.. here's the pix...

It's been quite some time since i have updated on my blog..

wondering why it's been some time i had update my blog?
haiz...the answer is: during the july holidays,my own PC at home broke down...
so that's explain why i can't update my blog at all...
i only got to do it today coz i borrowed the sch com...

haha,ok..so,i am busy with sch projects,and CIP...
hmm....ok,also with exam preparation too..
feel a little sad and disappointed for my OFA...because it's one of my strengthz in all my subject...
so i am aiming higher this time for all 3 of the subject...
recently,went window shopping with my friends and family,got so much things to buy!!! but short of CASH!!!!
i think i muz start looking for a part-time...
also,still got a new HP to buy...been thinking of changing my phone for some time now...
ok,got to go...
friends,if you ever read my entries,please leave some comments or jus tag my blog...
thnxs
blessing you readers...

Yeah!!! its holiday

finally,my hard work paid off...i think i got good results for my 1st CA tis yr.. and now,it's... Holidays!!!!! yup...that's right...i am having my school holidays now...a good time for me to relax after the stress period for the CA... hmm...i can say tt after since i have learn my lessons.. i am consider quite hard working right now... although i am having my holidays now...but i think,i'll just have a 1 week short break then maybe i'll go for a holidays job and maybe start working on the holidays assignment given by my teacher... yup... by the way,i just change my blogskin,and the music...hope you peeps like it... all of this blog,including the pictures and words were done by me.. it's a great surprise actually... hope u peeps like it... tag my blog and give me some comments... thnxs...

Times fly fast..

well,it's been like a month since i have last updated my blog entry...well,a lot has happen...and well,i don't wanna look back in the past,but of course,i'll keep the happy memories..coz i really do cherish them... ok,for quite some time,i have seem my friends in secondary..as all of us are now in the 2nd yr of ITE,a lot of changes come in us..really do miss those times spend together with em... haha... at gathering for the BBQ on 3 june 06,we r suppose to go in the sec sch for the ex-students gathering..its for students who graduated from siwss since 1987..and well,did meet my gals at the sch gate and we did saw lots of the seniors,my seniors, same bages schoolmates and CCA mates...but ended up we didn even step in! haha...coz its like,other people,for example,the NA or express students,they have lots of classes so is like they get to meet their lots of friends,but us...we only got this one pathetic class...4T1... So is like,we felt quite wierd to go in coz we didn really know the others.. So we went off having our own gathering somewhere nearby.. we had our dinner at the nearby coffeeshop...and of course,we had a long chat...chatting about what had happen to ourselves recently...ya...so get to share a lot of stories then here comes photo taking sessions...!!! all the photos were taken by shu ee,the maybe future photographer..haha good shot..!!! it was really a happy time coz i get to see you gals...since a long time...i wonder when i'll get to see you gals again...ah well,all the best to you gals alright...and stay in touch...!!!

Still not mood and no miricales..

haiz...its the 3rd week since 21st march 2006..and there's sitll no news at all... which i'm dying soon...everyone has started thier class and starting to absorb news knowleage where i'm am still no elsewhere..still lost...I went to see to the Section Head on 15 may and this is what she says:," your sis case is ok,i can still manage to squise her in but as for you,u got to wait patiently." not tt word,patiently again...i hv been told lots of time bout it...but yet my answer is all the same.. I pray to the god and even ask for a hint..my god says i can get in..but till now there's no news...i think my path wd be a dead one although i believe what my god says...coz i think my god just wanna let me feel good and told me that i can get in eh...which is well..fake... When is it my turn...ppl around been asking me which campus u gone to or which course r u at...but i can oni told them the real answer that im on waiting list...which is i clearly noe that they are looking down on me... And once again,im back to square-one..in the lonely and dark side of this world..which brings me back to the bad memory of when im in sec 1,which is realli horrible..and thinking abt it,and remembering im still on waiting list does hurts a lot... by the way,just bring a gd news which is half related to me,that is my sis,betty has sucessfully transfer from ITE Simei To ITE Clementi.. COngrats to her...but a sour feeling to me...T.T coz im still waiting...T.T and im blaming myself and hurting myself..pinching myself to let me remeber a lessons...a lessons tt i will never ever ever forget.... and now,this song "Had a bad day" is the song i hv been listening for quite a few months oreadi..been listening to it everyday...the melody explain my mood... Not gd... T.T T.T... ......................

Change of choice

well,i have call up the SH of admin a few days ago to change my appeal choice...also helped my sis to let the SH noe that she wanna transfer over too as she cannot take in the stress at simei and also might not be able to do well in accounts.. I'm still praying every single day...also wrote to MOE and SH of admin too..hope that i can get in the course as soon as possible.. I have oreadi miss the orientation week..don't wanna miss out the 1st week they start lessons.. come on,miricales..please come to me... I'm waiting...

still no mirecales

haiz...i still have no news abt it...i'm still waiting for a chance to go for my higher nitec, Accounts in ITE College East(Simei) I wanna go to the same school as my sis...poor her,got to go alone....today, is her 2nd day of sch..the 2nd day of me waking up so early just to help her prepare for school...
I misses all the good times in secondary school,same class with my sis, same class with my best grp of frens... if within this few days,still no news about my appeal..i might have to give up...and apply for CDAC,higher nitec admin..but i still don noe the ceft can go poly or not...so i am still thinking abt it..
i wanted so badly to go to my dream poly... i still wanted to go ITE College East (Simei) for accounts so badly..even though i noe,accounts is hard for me, i still insit on goin to ITE College East(Simei)..if i am give n the chance,and i got in the course,i will really put in a lot of efford and hard work..if i can get in,although is different class,but i don't mind...same school as my sis can liao... haiz... pray hard n still hope for it...

my mood is still down...

well,as it is still there..my mood is still affectted...i'm still down... still...worried and sad... can't help but thinking abt it... No perfection in struggled death, Just the pellet tearing lungs, limbs, sinews On an earth unforgiving And the gaping jaw - Each shiver a reminder of the frailty of life And death's dark hunger That will eat out raw each last breath. Who could deliver the bullet who saw that private war ? Death is no victory, but a bloodied mess. When I was born the sun lay down And time called out for clouds to lead me on But I refused to dance And set up all the wailings of the new born childBitter at my loss, Saddened by my plight, Born to dust and earth And dreary endless blight.

my furture for this year is still a mistery...

well,other ppl has know what is coming up next for them... me?...i am still lost...feeling helpless and fear... i hope that i really can get into a better condition soon...i guess... at least i still have that little bit of confidence in me....but it just can't get outta my mind...it is still weighting heavily in my mind and heart as its such an serious and important matter to me... come on,i'm not that bad-luck gal am i....?pls.... i don't believe it...i just don't believe that with my sincere attitude i can't get it right.... wish for all the best in me... don't ask me why cause it might sadden me again...

because i can onli face this alone...no one can help me but myself...

Life....is just a journey....

Life...is full of ups and downs....surprise...happiness....sadness...and things that happen out of wat u think.... when things get hard....u can onli try and take it easy,face the challenges that has happen to u... after some times,things get better,that is the time when u got all ur "Good" results... tml is the day im goin to simei....gotta see the section head there personal and that gives me kinda freak out...a little scary....but i gotta face it...no body can help....even if both of my frens comes along wif me... i stil gotta face it alone,by myself... it's up to me,myself... onli i can help myself... if i can't...my life would be ruined under my own hands.... wish my luck....

Bad mood

Just as i expected...mine is always not so smooth...the results out...and...well,i really don't wish to write it here...i am too sad...it'll make me cried more...some of u know what's going on...so,don;t need me to repeat....haiz....more waiting ahead....waiting for amiracle... but,congrats to weiling,betty and agatha for making it to simei...congrats!!!!

I'm might gonna have a doggie soon...

Well,i am so excited about the adobtion..you see...recently,my dad check on a web site of a company named "ADS"short for actions for dogs saved...then we check it out... well,we found one black dog named shadow...she's a morgerl mix slightly with labrador blood... she is only 1yrs 3 months...she has got very good balck in colour coat...and was healthy... she was born a stray but she has got a owner... the ASD people though that she has found a "Forever Home"..living in a big bagulow with a big garden....but then,ended up she was chained up in the back yard for the past whole year....poor thing...she don't deserved that... so i really hope to adobt shadow... well,i am so nervous about the results of which campus i'll be sent to.... hoping and wishing hard that i can really really get into simei ITE.... really really hope...please.....please.....

A whole of unfairness,unhappiness,sufferings,disease and more......!!!

This is a world full of unfairness,hate,sufferings,unhappiness and more.....people are being treated unfairly....people oftern junge by the looks,and not the characters,or the good points....They only choose people with beautiful faces(which is a vase)and not the people with real protential,charachter and good points....Those who are a "VASE"were just a fool....They ain't smart....they would normally said that they were kind-hearted,helpful,loyal and all good things...but that's not really true....they are often just a "VASE",who would be showing off,acting kind,acting loyal,just helping for the sake....not doing housechores,gaining good things,and being pampered a lot...just because they are bueatifull or handsome. They do not knkow what is called a "Hardship"....Thier hardship were just simple things.... Simple things like being accused....or just not being able to get the best out of all..it is just such a daft(silly) thing....and that is what their "Hardship" is about...but what about those who were left out,being abandone....?their "hardships" are being treated unfairly...accused for something they did not or dare not to do....yet they can't rebell back....doing extra things that is not meant to be thier duties...thier "Hardships" are the real,hard ups.... But,what can u blame in this world but yourself? there's no one u can blame....it is no ones faults.....not even you...it is only a luck....just a good or bad luck....if if that's your life ,a hard life or good life....you gonna live it that way....no other choice....besides,you can only cherish and treasure what you have now...once it is gone,it is gone forever...it will never come back...and also,never never EVER regret what you have done caurse what's done cannot be undone....

Valentine's Day

Hihi,it is valentine's day..... Is a special day for people to have time with thier loves ones. HaPpY VaLeNtInE's DaY!!! today,i spend my time with my friends(weiling,agatha)with my sis...at bukit panjang plaza. Today,acutally shu ee and tian ling surppose to come..but...as time is getting late...we decide not to ask them here...we sms them tell them not to come...instead we ask them to rest at home... We window shop in bukit pajang plaza...there's a lot of couple today...wow....soon it was late..we decide to have our dinner...we had korean spicy noodle and shu shi which we brough earlier on....it was tasty....lol.... Then it was time to go home...we farewell to weiling and head to the exit...as we just came out of the mall,there...is a pet shop out side the mall...there were cute little pets inside...we went inside to have a look.... The pet dog was so cute....it remind me of my last pet dog,Sandy....i miss her a lot....i wonder how is her....then after that,we head off to take bus home....when i rearch home,every one in my house were alseep...i took my bath,check my mails,update my blog then off to bed....

Eating at shu ee's hse...

Yesterday,i went to shu ee's house for dinner....it's her mum's treat...we are suppose to rearch there at 6.30pm...but,tian ling is still at school...so we have to wait for her....while waiting for her at her place...weiling arrived here...so we just chit chat a little....then agatha arrived with tian ling....finally,but tian ling need to get a bath cause she is leaking bad smell as she just finish her painting at school....while it take her some time to finish bathing and get dressing up...finally,off we go to shu ee's house.... When we arrived....i saw the pei hwa sec 2s student....they were so excited....but they were not gonna eat as they are waiting for their care teacher Jill...so we go ahead and had our dinner 1st...i had a fun time eating at shu ee's house...her mum cooks us plasta and rice,vinegar chicken and vegetables soup....it is delicous alright...After our dinner,we played majong...haha....as they were about 6 of us playing so 2 of us have to take turns..so i stick with shu ee's sis)shu ting) who is not really good at it....and betty stick to agatha as she is not good at majong too...so the games starts... Well,shu ting's really lucky that she got a good stack of the game...but a pity,she is not lucky enough to win the round...and the winner for this round is tian ling...finally,jill arrived and the pei hwa girls finally have thier dinner together with jill and shu ee....ok,back to the majong....second round,is me...my turn,well,i got really bad luck in it...my deck aren't as good as hers...well,but it was just a game afterall...what matters most is fun...hehe...the next round,as shu ting needs to take a bath so shu ee comes and play...shu ee was not good at this game as well,so i'll just stick with her and watch and help her a little here and there.... Well,shu ee's deck arent good as well....and of course she did not win this round...weiling did...her luck was good...then as it was getting late...we decide to play for the last round before we went home..so is my turn,and betty too....well,this round,weiling win again...i can say that she really is very lucky...haha...but it was fun...it was such a long time back since i had play majong with em....well...it was a very memoriam moments...i'm gonna thanks shu ee for inviting us to her place for a dinner...i really had fun there....it was a wonderful time that i will not forget....

Friendship House Visit on Lunar New Year

on 31 jan 06,we went for a house visit...
1st stop weiling's place...neat,tidy...her mum cook us lunch...nice too...we had curry,soup,rice....hehe...
then next stop,shu ee's house...neat too,but it was just a little decorated...then we spent some time gambling at her place...i'm the worst among them...i lost quite a lot of money...but luckily my sis help me recoup back my capital..haha..
next stop,my place...lol...i change my shoe then rest a short while,about 30 minutes i think,then off to tian ling's place...her place is well decorated..very neat too...her mum offer us some drinks and snacks,but all of us were quite full with all the snacks we ate ealier on...stay quite long then off to agatha's place...
finally went to her house...nice,wide,windy too...i love her house's floor...wooden floor...lol...then she show us lots of her photos,and CD albums...
finally,it was time for dinner...we sit around the round table...then here goes the munching....her grandmum's cook is great...the food is delicous...we had,curry with french toast,bee hoon,fried chicken wings...after that,got our red packets...off to west mall...
farewell to them as they are just gonna walk around in westmall...then off to meet my mum....
then wow,my mum is well dress...lol...then off to espane...for the lantern....